Trust - Barbara "Annie" Beyer

"Trust in the Lord with all thy heart and lean not unto your own
Understanding and he shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3:5

The night was damp and chilly. My tears seemed synchronized with the rain washing over my car as I sat in the hospital parking lot. I cried from my soul as I listened to the stanza of an old hymn. “Must Jesus bear the Cross alone and all the world go free? No there’s a cross for everyone; and there’s a cross for me.”

The doctor had called me in for a consultation regarding an EEG done on our seventeen-year-old daughter. We hoped for an explanation as to why she was experiencing headaches and black outs. I couldn’t get away from the message in the song. Each time I wanted to exit my vehicle, I couldn’t.

Ten years had passed since I divorced. It hadn’t been easy. Karen was just one of my five children and each time there was a problem, I was forced to face it alone. Tired, run down and feeling sorry for myself, the song spoke to my heart. Jesus had provided comfort…could he trust me to do the same?

“What is my cross? What is my part?” I cried.

“Trust me! Trust in the Cross and all it represents.”

“Karen’s EEG showed irregular brain waves. She has epilepsy. We’ll start her on a regimen of anti-seizure medication and see how it works,” the doctor advised.

Well-meaning friends shared stories of their children starting these medications. The result was a life-long dependency.

Much to my surprise, I said “no, I don’t want her to take that medicine. God will heal her.”

Once discharged, Karen had a follow-up with the doctor in two weeks. After her examination, I stood by the counter waiting to pay. Karen’s chart sat open on the desk in front of me. I lifted the page and read … ‘EEG normal range.’

“Hmm!” Normal and yet they prescribed this powerful medication?” I stuck to my guns. No harsh meds.

Within a couple of weeks the symptoms were gone.

God wanted me to trust. He knew she didn’t need a brain-altering drug. He knew that ‘this too would pass,’ but could I trust him?

God never puts more on us than we can bear without offering a way of escape. He allowed this trial to groom our faith. His mercy was mighty when He answered. The fire of hardship is hot but when the smoke clears, our faith brings us through.

What trial do you face? Step into the flames and trust. He won’t let you burn.

Barbara ‘Annie’ Beyer was born and raised in the ‘Motor City’ where life happened at a very fast pace. Five years ago she and her husband moved to Florida. Barbara is the mother of five wonderful children and ten grandchildren. Tucked away in her secret place of expression are her paintings of home and family. Her work includes nearly one hundred songs she has composed, along with inspirational poems. Her desire is to be used by God to encourage and edify others no matter what the task.
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