Holey Underware - Leah Mix

"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin...and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow…" Mathew 6:28-31 NIV

“Put them in the rag bag so you don’t keep wearing them, and we will buy you more,” my husband chided.

“But they have so many more miles left,” I retorted.

I had put my nail through the cloth and with each wearing and washing, the hole had become larger. On the outside, I was saying one thing, but God knew I was not being honest.

With things financially so tight, my heart doubted things would ever get better. My husband did well at juggling money, but we never seemed to get ahead. Therefore, it must be God’s fault. He wasn’t being true to His word; and my holey underwear proved it. Besides, no one but me, Gary and God knew I was wearing them, (and now you) so why should I spend the little we had on something unseen.

The maker of my heart knew what was lurking in the dark corners. I wasn’t being kind to His reputation.

Oh, I would tell others of His provisions, His blessings to us in so many ways, but my heart-harbored resentment that we weren’t at our previous status, or better. At this point in our lives, we should be “set” for our future, not wondering about our health care, or if we could afford to replace a broken appliance or replace a roof. As baby boomers, we were supposed to have more than the generations that went before us, but we didn’t. We were experiencing less.

I expected a bright future and when it didn’t materialize, I had become crushed in my spirit. Things were not like I had hoped for.

“God has blessed me in so many ways,” I said,” so why am I down in my spirit?”

This came the same week as the first earthquake in Haiti. Watching the scenes unfold was a wake-up call for me. With such devastation, I wanted to hold on to my holey piece of cloth. I felt blessed to have it. They had nothing to call their own. I had wealth all around me. Reality finally set in.

Satan snidely said, “See, He wasn’t kind to them either. See how He took care of them?”

Thinking on this, I said, “Yes, I do! He’s sent the world to help them.” Moreover, though they will never know it, the people of Haiti and the response to them, have even helped me!


Leah Mix has been married to her wonderful husband, Gary, for 39 years. A transplant from Upstate New York to Florida, Leah experienced culture shock, but now loves her home and wouldn't want to live anywhere else. She found out when God plants you, He will make you happy blooming there. Leah is the mother of two and grandmother of five. Writing is a new venture for Leah, but has been a dream for years. She is excited about the future because she has found, God is good - all the time. Read Leah's devotions.